o chit.
<3

After some reflection on my last entry, I would like to apologize for forcing my views on people, because I hate when people force their views on me. I was just trying to explain that feminists aren't crazy, man-hating bitches, like some people seem to think.

ANyway, Happy Thanksgiving to all!!

One thing I notice every time I come home is the lack of feminism in Buffalo. Even in my own friends. Even in my own FEMALE friends!
I feel like some women are just ignorant to the idea of feminism. Feminist extremists have given all feminists a bad name. Now, in my opinion, being an extremist of ANYTHING is bad, because it makes one intolerant to other ideas. Compromise is necessary for gaining rights. You have to be able to keep an open mind.
The common misconception is that feminists hate men, and think women are better than men. THIS IS NOT what Feminism is about. The definition of a feminist is a person (male or female) who believes that men and women should be equal to each other. Basically, it's just not being sexist. (Which is GOOD - DUH.)
This common misconception really hurts the Women's Rights Movement. Even Lady Gaga said, "I'm not a feminist. I love men!" (Btw, this is the ONLY thing I've ever heard her say that pissed me off.) FEMINISTS DO LOVE MEN. I love my dad, my brother, my male friends, my male teachers, my other male relatives, male artists, etc etc. I just get pissed off when I am discriminated against or treated a certain way that I don't want to be treated just because I am a woman.
Now, I think the problem might be that some women who don't identify as feminists think it doesn't apply to them. They might think, "I'm happy with my life the way it is. I don't have an issue with the way men treat me, so why should I bother with feminist thought?" Well, I'll explain why.
Sexism is the root of ALL discrimination. Racism. Religious discrimination. Etcetera. Sexism goes back to the beginning of time, practically - even though women make up HALF the entire human race! In countries like America, women have a lot more rights than they used to, and definitely more rights than women in developing countries. So, sometimes American women think feminism doesn't apply anymore. WRONG. So, so wrong.
Let's think for a minute here. 1 out of every 4 women in America will experience some form of sexual assault in her lifetime. And for women in college, it's 1 out of 3. THAT IS SCARY. Now, that's just sexual abuse. What about domestic violence? It happens WAY more than anyone likes to admit. Men inflict psychological, emotional, and physical abuse on their girlfriends, wives, and daughters every single day in this country.
I think we all know what the results of abuse are on women. Depression, low self-esteem, lack of trust, insecurity, possible drug abuse, maybe even suicide. And it forces women to live in fear. Also, it creates a cycle - often abused women get involved in MORE abusive relationships. And their daughters watch. They learn, "that's just how men treat women, I better get used to it." And then they fall into the same trap! It happens all the time.
Granted, this is not the only thing on a feminist's agenda. But it's an extremely important one.

Boys are not born thinking they have to grow up to be all-powerful, and that women are below them. Girls are not born thinking they have to grow up to be subservient to men. Children are RAISED to think this way. And in order for our country, and our world, to change, we need to stop letting all this sexist thought and action slide by. It starts with you.
As women, we deserve to be paid the same amount of money as men. We deserve the same amount of RESPECT as men. We deserve to be safe. We deserve to be just as important and just as powerful as men. Because we are ALL human.
You don't have to change your whole life to be a feminist. But stop letting men talk down to you. You have a voice! Use it! Stop letting men touch you when you don't want to be touched. Stop laughing at sexist jokes (and ESPECIALLY rape jokes - rape is NEVER funny, in any way). Stop thinking men are stronger than you are. The less power you GIVE men over you, the less power they HAVE over you. Don't let them tell you to shut up, or that you're weaker than them and you should obey. (I know men don't use those exact words, but you know when that is what they mean.)
And lastly, don't think feminism is a bad thing. It's not. If we want change, we have to work at it - ALL of us.
<3

I am happy to say that Madi and I celebrated our one-month anniversary yesterday. <3 Yeah, so it's the third time we've dated, but you know what they say, third time's the charm, right? And both of us know that it's different this time. This time there's trust, and honest love, and no fights. So that's good. =)
I am also happy to say that I got a ticket to see Gaga on January 21st, at Radio City. Portia and Christina are also going, but none of us can sit together because Ticketbastard sucks. But so what - as long as I see my Gaga, I really don't care.
My Field Trips professor doesn't hate me! She said I wrote some "provocative and insightful material" on the Tracey Emin show we went to last week. Hell yeah bitch. Provocative AND insightful.

Feelin' pretty good, despite being worn out from the cold, windy city.

I keep having these dreams about getting fired from my job...OH and about my turtles having like millions of babies. Which sounds cute at first, until they fill up the whole entire tank. I want to know what these dreams mean...because my turtles will not have babies cuz they hate each other, and I know they are not going to fire me from Just Pizza. lol.

Anyway, onto the important news.
Last night...I did it. I pre-ordered The Fame Monster SUPERDELUXE Bundle. Yeah, with S&H it was $140, but to me it's worth it. It's my Christmas present to myself. It will ship on December 15th (Denise's b-day!) and I'm just having it sent right to my house because I don't trust the mailroom at my school. They fuck everything up.
The Fame Monster Superdeluxe Bundle comes with all of this:
-The original "The Fame" album (which I only have a burned copy of)
-8 new songs and an all black 2-sided CD
-Autographed certificate of authenticity
and the DEFINITIVE "BOOK OF GAGA." Which is why I spent the money. It includes:
-A lock of Lady Gaga's hair (it's probably not her real hair. I'm sure it's her wig. But it's still HER WIG.)
-3D glasses to view forthcoming Gaga visuals
-Behind the Scenes look at Gaga's creative process (a visual artist's DREAM <3)
-Personal notes from Gaga
-and each book is individually hand-numbered.
I think it might also come with a puzzle, and the Bad Romance T-shirt.

For real, I might pass out when I open it. But it's all good. lol.

Now I am off to my studio to do some SWEET drawings of...you guessed it, Gaga. <333
PEACE

P.S.
MY MADIBEAR IS COMING BACK TONIGHT!!! YAAAAYYYYYY <3

So...my Madibear has the swine flu. So in addition to having to clean my entire apartment and wash everything I own, I am Madi-less for 5-7 days. (Because she went home.)
I mean, it's a good opportunity for me to get lots of work done. And I'm kind of glad the apartment is clean now. But...='( I want my Madi!!
And I think Portia is still at home with the flu as well...so uhh...I guess I'll be chillin with Luis this weekend? Yes? haha.
Sigh...back to class. -_-

Today, we went to Dia:Beacon for our field trip. It was pretty sweet, as much as I'm not into Conceptual art/Minimalist art/Design in general. It was a re-formed box factory, turned into a huge, beautiful art gallery. It is flooded with natural light, with wooden floors and beautiful windows. Really a gorgeous, gorgeous space. But because the space is so epic, most of the work in the gallery is made to be displayed in the space. I mean, it's perfect for the type of art they show...but damn, how come painters can't have sweet galleries like that? Well, I guess they do. But many are not as epic.
Then I got back to my apartamento and made fried spinach-and-ricotta tortelloni, with homemade marinara dipping sauce. It was uh-mazing. I've discovered recently, at some point this year, that I really love to cook.
I've been doing pretty good lately. I'm on new medication and feeling much better than I was this summer/at the beginning of the school year. Feeling less depressed has really helped with my energy levels, my relationships with others, my creative inspiration, even my willingness to participate. It's really amazing how much depression affects people.
Brrr it's so cold.

P.S.
I really can't believe some people are hatin' on "Bad Romance." (Gaga's new song.) It's fucking good. Y'all are strange.

So seeing the Manics last night was AWESOME! It was a fun show. They played amazingly. And I met Nicky! (And sort of James).
I gave Christina (my fellow concert-goer) the pictures from the show so she could Photoshop them. (Cause they're all pretty dark.) So those will be up later.
The show venue was pretty small, so it was a nice intimate show. Christina and I were standing pretty close to the right side of the stage, where Nicky and his feather-boa-covered mic stand were. It was sa-weeet!
There were a lot of superfans in the crowd...lots of people in white pants, hand-painted T-shirts, and leopard print. So much leopard print!! <33 Sadly, my leopard print coat is at home in Buffalo (as is my Manics T-shirt) so I couldn't wear any of my sweet fan gear. =(
One more cute thing - At some point, Nicky said that James was his "Guitar Hero." AWWWW <3
Oh yeah...and I couldn't help but notice that their new backup guitarist...looks a tiny bit like Richey. lol he had the same kind of haircut, and he was really little and skinny...
( Set List )

So after the show, we hung around outside waiting for the band to come out...we waited for about an hour, then Nicky and James finally came outside. We were closest to James, and Nicky had a bigger swarm of people around him, so at first we tried to go meet James. But mad people wouldn't leave him alone, and we didn't want to be super pushy and annoying, so we weren't that aggressive. Once Nicky's group decreased in size, we went over there and got pictures with him. =) My picture is awesome - I got the big goofy Nicky grin! And he seriously had to bend over so far to be in the pictures with me and Christina, cause we're both short lol. So cute. And he seemed really nice.
We went back over to James, but he kept trying to get away from the fans to go on the bus. Like, if you were pushy and asked him for a picture, he'd be polite and say yes, but you could tell he was tired and getting a little annoyed, and we didn't want to piss him off. So we left him alone. lol but it was still cool!

( me and Nicky! )
Alright. Pictures later!

P.S.
I just found out that mewithoutYou is playing this Saturday at Purchase for Fall Fest! Fucking SWEET!! I love mewithoutYou, and I get to see them for free!? Awesome!

FAME KILLS: Starring Lady Gaga and Kanye West was CANCELLED. ;____;
I'm a sad kitty now. ='(

Fuck THAT. My dad just got me the BEST TICKETS EVER...LAST NIGHT. Waaaahhhhhh!! They were 200 section, FRONT ROW. Like seriously right in the middle of the arena, with a perfect view. And now it's cancelled.

I hate my life. =(

So...the VMA's were actually interesting for once.
First off. I definitely don't think Taylor Swift deserved that award. That song fucking blows, and Beyonce and Gaga's videos were both WAY better than hers. BUT! Kanye's an asshole for doing that. It was mad disrespectful, and who the fuck does he think he is?? I feel sorry for Taylor for having to be embarrassed like that. Poor thing. I thought it was sweet of Beyonce to bring her back out later so she could finish her acceptance speech.
WTF Kanye. I love your music, but you can be such a douche. So disappointed in you.
But besides all that drama, Gaga's performance was FIERCE, Beyonce's performance was FIERCE, and Jay-Z and Alicia Keys brought the house down!! Finally, a VMA's with GOOD performances. lol.
Beyonce deserved Video of the Year, so luckily that went to her. And Gaga won Best New Artist, which she HANDS-DOWN deserved. (She also won two other Moonmans they didn't announce live, but yeah.)
Loved Gaga's crazy outfits that she kept changing. lol. She's such a nutball.
Oh yeah, and Green Day beat Kings of Leon, which was buuullshit, but whatevs.
(And I just re-read this and realized that I sound like a huge Beyonce fan, which I am not, but I just think Single Ladies deserved an award cause DAMN she can dance!)

K that's all I have to say about that.

..........

Y'all just got OWNED.

<3

FIERCE.
I want a sparkly Hello Kitty covering MY vag...jealoussss
( and one more )

Sooo...I wanted to announce that I like this woman a lot.

This is Keri Hilson.
You may have heard her new song with Kanye West and Ne-Yo, "Knock You Down". Or maybe you heard her singing in Timbaland's "The Way I Are." Or perhaps you heard the song "Turnin' Me On," which she did with Lil Wayne. But the point is, she's hot, and has a pretty voice, so I like her.
( Miss Keri Baby )

I finally deleted my MySpace. It took forever, but I did it. Fuck MySpace.

So...I am really dying to see Kanye and Gaga in both Buffalo and NYC. Why? Because the fucking TOUR OPENER is in Buffalo. Gaga has never even played B-lo before, and I think it would just be a fucking shame if her biggest fan in the city wasn't there.
Also, concerts are usually better in Buffalo than NYC. WEIRD, I know, but it's true. I've been to enough concerts in each city, and almost always, the B-lo shows are more fun.
But...ehhh can I really afford to go to both? It's not the tickets I'm worried about, that I can cover. But transportation home and back...that's the issue.
AND, just to throw more shit in the mix, the Manic Street Preachers are playing in NYC October 7th. Kanye/Gaga in Buffalo is October 4th, and Kanye/Gaga in NYC is October 15th. ARRRGGHHH.
I wish I was rich. ='( The Manics hardly ever tour, especially not in the U.S. But I am just DYING to see Kanye and Gaga in both cities!!
It's a dilemma.
Srsly.

So this ignorant douchewad that I work with, as we were doing dishes, said to me today:
"Don't ever adopt kids." I replied, "why? You think I'd be a bad mom?" And he answered, "No, a kid just shouldn't have two moms. That's fucked up." So I said, "Keep your homophobic opinions to yourself." He said, "I'm not a homophobe, but kids need a mom and a dad." I said, "50% of heterosexual marriages end in divorce. That fucks kids up a lot more than having married gay parents." And he said, "No, having gay parents fucks a kid up more than anything. Then they don't know what's normal."
After that I stopped listening.
People just suck sometimes. Ignorance is poison.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Rs7KQ9vE90
Watch it. Her performance at the MMVA's is AMAZING. <3

Ugh. I'm starting to see my personality as an epic fail. I just don't think a lot of people are as emotional and sensitive as I am. (Or they're worse than me, and that's just unhealthy lol).
Whatever, fuck it, if I'm an epic fail, then so be it. I'll probably die young anyway.
I am in loooove with my kitten. omg. He is seriously SO adorable. Right now, he's on the back of my chair, going crazy. lol.
I cannot wait for the Kanye West/Lady Gaga tour this fall. I am getting tickets THE SECOND they go on sale. I can't believe Kanye asked her to co-headline...it is so awesome.
(Also, Rihanna looks SO HOT in the new Kanye video...JUST SAYIN')
The plus side of working all the time is that my guns are starting to look pretty serious. My parents said my arms are bigger than my brother's (because he's a twig). lol
Alright, well I gotta go to the store. And then I'm goin to Tifft with Katie and it's gonna be iiillllll. =)
K bye.

Um...so I finally got a Twitter account. My username is glittrestar. Add me? I have no friends yet.
Also...I don't hate Beyonce, but her song "Halo" is so fucking bad that it makes me want to choke something.
Also? I've discovered why I don't really like Pink (the singer, not the color, obvs). Because all of her songs are SO FUCKING REPETITIVE. Good god, learn how to write music!! Add some breakdowns, some background vocals, some better lyrics, some different beats throughout the song...SOMETHING. And then maybe your songs won't be annoying after two listens. GRRRR.
I swear, Lady GaGa is pretty much the only hope the pop music world has right now. Srsly.
Alright. Done ranting for now.

UMM SOOO Lady GaGa is on the cover of Rolling Stone this month...and the article was amazing. Here are the most important quotes from the article, in case you don't want to buy the magazine just for the cover and like 2 other pictures.
-"Gaga...is a pop star for misfits and outcasts. She would rather look interesting than pretty."
-"Gaga is fully Gaga at all times."
-"her creative director...is part of the team she has dubbed Haus of Gaga, which she envisions as a modern-day version of Warhol's Factory."
-"But the price of her no-pants look is eternal vigilance: At all times, her ex-Marine bodyguard and three backup dancers took turns standing behind her - they were guarding her ass against paparazzi. Earlier in the week, she caused a ruckus in a Queens Stop & Shop after showing up in a transparent bodysuit (with only a bra and G-string underneath) to shop for tortelloni."
-quote from Lady GaGa herself: "I don't have the same priorities as other people. The truth is, the psychotic woman that I truly am comes out when I'm not working. When I'm not working, I go crazy." (I can relate to that..)
-"Before she had an audience, it was just Gaga and her mirror. And for a while, it got weird. In her shitty little apartment, she would order a bag of cocaine from a delivery service, get high, and work on her hair and makeup for hours. She'd get it perfect, and then come down from the coke and do it all over again. 'It was quite sick,' Gaga says with a barely concealed note of pride."
-"Gaga considers herself bisexual, but her attraction to women is purely physical - she's never been in love with a woman." (obviously she just hasn't met me yet.)
-"If she's ever interested, there's one man in Lady Gaga's life who's up for pretty much anything she might want: His name is Marilyn Manson, and he's newly single. The two stars met not long ago when they recorded remixes of each other's upcoming singles (UM I WANNA HEAR), and they hit it off.
The article then says he wants to bang her and "know her a lot better". And that he wants to be the dude in the Paparazzi video that she's mackin it to!
-quote from Manson about Gaga: "I was most impressed by her paparazzi photos. I thought that it looked the way that rock stars should look, as exciting as something that Warhol or Dali would do. And I don't consider her to be similar to her contemporaries - the other girls that do pop music - simply because she knows what she's doing. She's very smart, she's not selling out, she's a great musician, she's a great singer, and she's laughing when she's doing it, the same way that I am." (uhh he basically hit the nail right on the head...except that Manson has not been cool since the 90s...)
-"Gaga can't abide even the prospect of failure - it terrifies her."
-quote from Gaga herself: "All that ever holds somebody back, I think, is fear. For a minute tonight, I had fear. I went into the room and shot my fear in the face - then I came out and I did the rest of the show." (she's SO RIGHT about the fear thing!)
-"She wants to make 'museum-worthy' art out of pop." (DO IT, GAGA, PLEASE DO IT!)
-"But more important, she wants to inspire her fast-growing fan base - which now ranges from downtown drag queens to suburban eight-year-olds - to find their true selves, to shoot their fear in the face."
-and one last quote from Gaga herself: "I want people to walk around delusional about how great they can be - and then to fight so hard for it every day that the lie becomes the truth."

SHE IS MY HERO. The end.

"I'm getting very tired of the facts
I'm getting very tired of the fact that

I must be right
Oh, it must be right
That's why I'm cold and alone again
That's why I'm all on my own again
That's why I'm throwing things around my home again
That's why
I'm looking for love"
-The Organ

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2w-poSdx9pI

watch this. just do it. your life will be 10,000x better if you do.